To any reader of mine, i am now switching to a different blog site... ima using blogspot! but no hard remembering needed, here's the link to the new site!

lonelybean.blogspot.com

Ciao!

For those of you who dunno wat's honey stars, it's a kind of breakfast cereal shaped like stars, and coated with honey... lol, sounds quite retarded, but yeah...

so, after so many years without honey stars, last week i bought a box. used to have it for breakfast when i was little, but then it attracts ants like crazy, so soon after my mom switched to Koko Krunch, and i have been having that for breakfast until dunno when... well, so much for the story fo the past, now let's come back to this present box that i bought last week... it's currently sitting on my lap, while i eat it n type this post... not sure if it's because they changed the formula, or perhaps i just remembered it wrongly, but the taste somehow doesn't feel the same anymore... perhaps it's this whole grain thingy that they've introduced... i used to remember honey stars as candy that melts in your mouth (lol to MnMs), but now, suddenly it feels more... healthy. and no ants! no ants at all! i'm pretty sure it's not because i've done an extremely good job at sealing the thing away, but rather, honey stars is just not the honey stars that i once knew... *sigh* gone by the passing of time...

Well well, look who's blogging! To think i was actually planning to stop blogging altogether, but i guess keeping it in isn't exactly healthy...

The thing is, I'm struggling to live on each day... On the one hand, i try my best to believe on others to do their part, and not monitor their progress... but on the other, i KNOW that is not going to work! Still, the trouble that i will have to go through to get things right, to start things off, to correct the wrongs... to be honest, i don't feel that i'm up for it... I am but one person, how do i keep up with so many burdens? the burden of many on the shoulder of one... i feel that i will crush under its weight... even if i DO live to tell the tale, is it worth it?? What's a team if there is no teamwork? Why should the leader bother to lead, if the subordinates are just going to let him down in the end? To this question, i can find no answer...

i AM struggling, struggling to solve this dissonance in me... to strive a balance between achievement, and relaxation... the mean, the end...