never thought i'd update again, haha... but then again, seeing mr. ding dong made an effort to find my blog, well, i guess i shud post some stuff up to entertain my guest, huh? oh well, what to post? hmm... firstly, i'd like to say that e MoustHunt application in Facebook is quite interesting... give u a good mood sometimes... make u feel lucky... u can find out more urself... or ask me... rite.. next up, is this stupid game that is $*#&T!)$ so tedious to play at first (well actually, if i hadn't cheat later on, i guess it would still be tedious... but i'll never know ^^) and the game name is: Devil May Cry 3. rite... i know it's an old game, but nobody finished it before (at least not from my family) so i guess i shud give it a try... cuz i was so bored to death with this long holiday, haha... have been completing games for the past few months... i even went so far as to go and obtain the infinite ammo face paint and EZ gun for Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater. then i finished prince of persia 3: the two thrones as well... oh my, quite an achievement eh? haha... there are some other game but i won't digress too much (it's already too much anyway) rite.. so i was saying, yes, devil may cry 3... oh my god!! the game was sooooo hard at first, i get pissed off almost every single time i play it... haha... back then i thought it will tae me eons to complete... and then finally, the storyline reaches a point where i can finally cheat!! ah~~~ well, things got alot easier after that... before cheat, it takes me hours, sometimes days to complete 1 single mission, and there was 20 of them in total... haha... but i can play cheat after mission 6 or 7 i think... and then i start to go a few missions a day and wa la! i finished the game just now... hahaha... oh well... good thing this long holiday is almost over, well, it may be a bad thing as well... but let's be optimistic now shall we? anw, oh yeah, for those of you out there who dunno... i'm going NTU to study Psychology... (he finally gets to the point) ... and that's that. period. (wth!? now that was poorly elaborated!!) haha... yea, nth much to say, update later when things settle down already... which will be like in anotehr months time or so... 

i guess u'll be wondering... where is part 1?? well, actually, part 1 was supposed to be up yesterday, but then as u see... due to various circumstances, after i typed finish, i din manage to post it up, and i'm too lazy to rewrite the whole thing... i mean, it just doesn't feel the same anymore... anw, for ppl that visits this blog, part 1 is really my past that doesn't involve u... so why bother knowing? rite then... i shal continue with my 3rd mistake..

3. ah yes... 3rd one... i mention in my previous post already.. how i had chosen bio instead of physics during my JC yrs.. such an idiot i am... now that i think abt it, i think i convinced myself with these few reasons: i) this is important if u wanna take Medicine, which is basically crap, since it is not necessary, and i dun really want to take Medicine ii) i heard this other crush of mine (yup, a new crush already! fast huh) say she's going to take bio!! OMG~~!! since my lousy brain is still so lousy, yea, that made a difference iii) this isn't really used to convince me, but rather an underlying reason in my subconscience, which is i wanna show ppl that i can do it even if i'm not strong at it... haha... immature is the word to describe me... yup... sigh... well, as for wat happened, you know, so i dun wanna mention it again..

4. this one is the various mistakes and times when i fumbled in trying to win my crush's heart. soo many times i failed... i was guessing throughout how she feels.. yup, guessing... that's why it din worked out.. after the first time, u'd think i'm not so shy anymore, but yet... i still dun dare to call... how is it possible for a relationship to work out that way?? sigh... i thought i changed, but wat really changed was my attitude... i became more optimistic, or more precisely, more naive... dreaming that all will go well... yea, everything is good and that i dunneed to do anything to get all that i want.... hahahaahhaa... sadly that's not the case... and i woke up waaayyy too late... now she's gone... i've wasted all my chances... no more hope can be seen... my heart pains for my passiveness... but perhaps it's because i dunno how to love someone... haha... too self-absorbed... selfish.. self-centered... until i couldn't see anybody ard me... couldn't see how they feel... couldn't symphatize.. could only think of wat benefits me the most... how arrogant of me... i deserve this punishment... but will it change me? i hope so... but hope alone is not enough...

rite... i'll leave off here, feeling too weary to continue...

to be continued...

i'm just doing this cuz my blog seemed a little unattended... haven't blog in awhile u know.. then trying to waste some time here... typing some craps here and there... oh, and complaining abt the lousy govt system here... u know where is here so i won't spell it out... it's total rubbish, the stuff those idiots up there say.. this is our motto! well, then you should fall, and u will! in fact, u have! dumb ass... talk all sort of nonsense... humiliating themselves and us! if we go democracy, then where is the place of kings?? they don't have much place in government! .. not talking linearly now.. mind is going totally nuts... we cannot have democracy, yeah right! this just shows how primitive they are, how they are unable to accept the fact that money don't come easy, how they want life to be easy, and they want to be oblivious of the forces of nature... be in their own small paradise and do what they want.. those filthy scums.. one day, they too will face democracy... it is in human's nature.. they canot go against it... they think they can live on like this forever... with other races being their slaves, working their pants off just so these idiots can get another piece of pie.. but one day, they will realise that all that they have done will backfire on them, that their slaves will no longer work for them... and when that time comes, these people will start to consume each other, eventually leads to their downfall... those who wwish to survive will start to vote, vote who gets what, who should prevail.. the power of majority, the power of democracy.. when some people are too stupid and stubborn to go with the flow, the flow will either have to push them forward the harsh way, or drown them. Choose now, and choose wisely, but i suppose that is not possible.. for if they had the brains to think, they wouldn't had to come to this.. oh well, we seek fairness, but what is fairness? the world isn't deisgn to be fair.. we are not the same, therefore we are not fair... everyone gets a different life, be it a painful one, or a blissful one... life's message hides within our daily lives... and each one of us gets a different message.. so how can there be fairness? democracy isn't fair, but why is it that most countries are ruled by a system of this sort? those who think not, goes with the flow; those who think, defies the flow; and those who understands, accept the flow. i guess i have wasted alot of time here, if my thoughts didn't come across very clearly, which i expect to be the case, then pardon me, but ideas are always very chaotic.. and i'm not in the mood to sort it out.. it's not like i want to get a prize out of this or something... well, i guess that's about it for this post