The thing is, I'm struggling to live on each day... On the one hand, i try my best to believe on others to do their part, and not monitor their progress... but on the other, i KNOW that is not going to work! Still, the trouble that i will have to go through to get things right, to start things off, to correct the wrongs... to be honest, i don't feel that i'm up for it... I am but one person, how do i keep up with so many burdens? the burden of many on the shoulder of one... i feel that i will crush under its weight... even if i DO live to tell the tale, is it worth it?? What's a team if there is no teamwork? Why should the leader bother to lead, if the subordinates are just going to let him down in the end? To this question, i can find no answer...
i AM struggling, struggling to solve this dissonance in me... to strive a balance between achievement, and relaxation... the mean, the end...